Goodbye

floating on a cloud,                                                                                  

that consumes you,                                                                                   

with open arms,                                                                                       

and the only thing that shines in its eyes is you,                                           

over filling your cup with so many feelings,                                           

feelings that you where afraid of having,                                               

neverless showing,                                                                                     

no matter what you do!                                                                             

for the wind may move it but it all ways comes back,                                 

the way that you see the cloud is unknown to words,                                 

the way you see every thing else from the cloud is unbelievable,                 

for you lost some one,                                                                             

that took a piece of you,                                                                              

it was tooken care of by the cloud,                                                                

like it was nothing,                                                                                    

with all the bad blood going around,                                                          

the cloud is there to clean it,                                                                      

for all the miss trust and lies,                                                                       

the cloud is there to make it right again,                                                 

trying to make yourself float threw life....

by holding on to only the good things in the past,                                                                                                        

just so you dont have a bad day is not the way to live,                                

for this cloud lets your heart breath,                                                           

for the first time,                                                                                      

with clean air,                                                                                            

the window in your life you all ways just looked out of to afraid to open,

throws itself open for you,                                                                          

to let all the beautiful... neverless amazing things come threw,                       

to let you know,                                                                                      

you have all ways been loved,                                                                  

and never alone!

I havent posted anything latley so I decided to break you guys off a little something, that I wrote but other then that I have been going to dance and kicking it with some peeps. I am still freakin sick from like last month, and I hate being sick.O-yeah if you guys want to send Coby any thing...hold up I will take back anything. I mean as long as I can carry it so that means you caleb none of your girlfriends or ex's can be sent to coby. Ok ?OK! back to what I was saying I will be sending this stuff on this friday so if you want to send him some thing its not going to cost you anything but just give it to me on thursday (the day in front of friday). well I gtg, TTYPL, (talk to you peeps later) bye! but I am going to leave you guys with some of MY sayings:   Love,                                                                                                       just is!

To run away from your problems,                                                               

is running to your problem!

 

When you are fighting some one,                                                              

you are killing your mein!

 

when some one breaks a heart,                                                                    

it only builds another wall!

 

when you look into the eyes of some one you love,                                 

thats the only mirror you need!

 

To open the flood gates,                                                                             

is to open your heart to the world!

 

So I hoped you liked them cause I wrote them but I really got to go, one

John

Hey coby you missed out on something that was.... how can i say funny! there so much but i will write to you not all of it but most of it. well every body else from CODE you guys did awesome on sunday. I was suprised on how well you guys did. I really didnt like how I had to stall a lot but other then that it was good. I have to say that.... never mind, but that is all i have to say.  peace

Wuz-up everybody I have been gone for a while but I guess the only reason why i havent said any thing in a while is because i really didn have any thing to say but its all good in the neighbor hood but coby you and caleb have always been my bitches and i dont give a fuck if i am not invited to any of the birthday parties cause they..... i am going to stop my self there, but fuck the big  Vday cause i have to spend so much money this morning but its all good tho cause I am going to be with my best friend in the whole world, but before the i have to go to dance. oh yeah, your ah  be ah  be ah  coby if you want it slower for you that means Biotch (bitch if you still couldnt understand). hey dont feel left out caleb you are one too. Hey did you know that Amanda Kissed her boyfriend out in the parking lot of the Nutcracker of course you know coby but i dont think she knows whats going to happen to ol'e carson (Bad Boys II style).  Hey i just have to say Fuck missouri fuck ------ fuck ----- fuck ----fuck ---- fuck-- fuck-- well i gotz ta go to dance one!

For you some people that miss me say ing fuck i have something for you FUCK--------- FUCK----- FUCK------- FUCK---- FUCK--FUCK--FUCK--! thats all that i really wanted to say anyways so have a fucking nice day! oh yeah, i want to make a shout out to my little dooky coby, and MY bitch/ hoe CALEB for giving up my money that he owed me from HIS corner that he works at (100st and Broadway), but he knows he shorted me 5k for the bj's  (banana jamas) he gave out for free. hey, everybody i hope you guys have fun at the NUTCRACKER thing because I am having lots of fun. holler at you later players! oh yeah the word for today is fuck!!!!! I need to types this poem for my bro and phil cause i just feel like it!

So many people have the joy of,                                           

having an angel born into their life,                                               

but it includes the weight of the world falling on their shoulders,   

having their hearts dam's rushed with so much,

only in the end, 

to find rivers of the strong willed skin,                                      

submiss to the rapids they become,                                             

for he saw the most purest sight,                                                

the most inquisitive eyes,                                                           

but it only filled the palm of his hand,                                          

for that didnt mean she didnt fill his heart,                                   

for I know he never felt so much in one tender touch,                  

for he gets butterfly's when he kisses her to bed,                           

as if that was the first kiss he ever gave to anybody,                        

I guess thats why they call them butterfly kisses,                          

for he knows one day he will have to let her,                                

take her first steps....with his heart skipping a beat,                       

ride her first bike without training wheel's.... without him holding on to the bike!,

and the one that will rip his world apart but...... will fill it with so much happiness,               

when he gives her away to someone she loves,                               

but until then he will be her biggest love of her life,                      

for its true,                                                                                

for her love for him will not mend,                                                

cause his knees buckles when he see's her,                                   

as if he wished that all the bad things that could ever happen to her,

on to himself!!,                                                                      

cause he could not live with himself if something did,                   

for she will learn things from him you cant teach from a book,

like..... unconditional love.....how to follow her hearts dreams and

aspirations...... how to trust and respect her self to not follow the

crowed when they are doing something wrong,                            

but I am not saying he's not going to learn from her,                     

for she will show him some mountains he never climbed,          

some meadow's he never seen,                                                  

and some waterfall's he never jumped off of,                              

but I hope he wont be afraid,                                                     

nor be over protective,                                                               

for I hope he just embraces it!!,                                                 

like how he saw her when she first came into the world,               

for she is him!,                                                                            

and he is her,                                                                            

for she is an angel,                                                               

waiting to get her WINGS!!!!

by this nigg-grow

John Thompson (for the people that still dont know me)

 

I wrote this poem for phil and my bro just to make sure you young bucks know. Oh well, I got to bounce. I got in trouble yesterday so i have to be at dance sat.  it fucking sucks!! one (white poeple translation: Okay fred lots of love my brothern) 

 

 

 

Hey, wuz-up pimps and players. you know who i am talking about. I had lots of fun so far this week it has been a tid bit nippley but i am a little fat so all that is good for the ol' bad weather. I missed my bitch the most "CALEB". I had a good ol' lay over for a whole 12 hours it sucked balls, but other then that i will talk to you players and pimps later!  

I havent checked this out in awhile. Its a FUCKING NEW  YEAR! There is so many words that can describe my new years but its not even worth my time but  I just have to say for those people you want the old me! so you guys are going to get him!!! On to something worth talking about I would have to give flight of the phenoix two thumbs up, cause there was some bad ass parts in it, and oceans 12 two middle fingures up, cause i fell asleep about 3 times trying to watch the movie. It was so fucking boring. Other then that I have been busy, getting ready to leave. I had to get my storage place for all the stuff that i can t take up to NY. Well for the people that probably dont know i am leaving sunday, I am leaving sunday! so if i didnt say bye to you. I am saying it now. I had a Mcchicken yesterday around 11am and I start getting sick around 3 and for the rest of the day i was sick until 3am this morning. Hey coby "Why kay, cause you gotta"ha ha ha he he he. Dont act like you dont konw what i am talking about! hey to all the bigfoots in the world i am not going to miss you, you know who you are. FUCK-----FUCK----FUCK-------FUCK------FUCK--FUCK-- FUCK------  there is  about a little bit less then 14 hours before i leave. i will talk to yall later, bye! 

 

 hey peeps wuz-uuuuuup! On monday, I like to tell you that I got chased by a german sheperd. for about a quarter of a mile and I puked for about 15 minutes. its all good though. hey, I found out that life is to short to be down. So....... I just stopped caring about things, because the only thing that happens is change. I dont care what people think of me if they think that I am gay hey I am gay, if you think that i like megan I like megan but I dont care i know what the truth is! for you dont know what is in my heart, and what is not in my heart! for the people that actually do know me, I love Lindi and I all ways will. even though we have some bad times we all ways make it through. I did have some thing to say but all the bull shit that was sent to me just makes me not even want to talk today! they didnt get to me i am just tired. one

hey i fucking hate when people lie to me that is my biggest pet peeve. I dont lie to you why do you lie to me? karma!!!  it's a bitch, but hey im going to be leave soon so those people that want me to leave you dont have to worry i will be gone soon enough and you will not have to deal with me any more. For the others i will miss you guys a lot and i will call u before i leave.

This past week nothing really happened worth talking about. only thing that happened is that I stopped believing in LOVE. I thought i would be the last person that would ever think that, but i guess things dont happen the way you plan it, and it hurts badly but hey there is nothing i can do. So the only thing i can do is stop caring!!!

I think that I have done nothing wrong to you, and you know who you are! all I have done is stay true to you and everybody else if you dont like that i guess we have nothing left to say to each other!

well this this is going to be a long day cause i am not relly doing any thing today. except for the nut. all of you peeps no what i am talking about, but i am fucking glad that i am leaving about a month!