this song may-be old but it still has its meaning to a couple of people and me and makes me think about the people below!!!!!!

Ashely I was talking about you...cause I dont know your last name thats why I just didnt say it. the other ashely's that I know have nick names thats why they knew it wasnt them...I dont know where this came from but I am feeling like SHIT!!!!! ever since I woke-up..I miss you guys....ashely I am even talking about you and the whole group and melinda and her family..amory and your family...dj..jj and his family (Khy made me cry when I called)..the johnsons...leah and her family...morgan and her family....holly and her family (daddy'O # 3 still owes me a spicy chic meal from wendy's)...My 2nd daddy'O david slaughter....Oh you cant forget my 1st ever Daddy'0 Tom fullerton..lauren...amanda..AP (amanda painter)..amelia even though we never really hung out...clit I mean Clinton..caleb and coby fuck you guys!! just kidding! oh yeah, and there is anna I miss you too!! I all ready know that I am miss people so..I dont know I am tired of typing names so to all the rest of my friends I miss you!!!!

So my day to day was bad was like "H-E-double hockey sticks!!" My whole body was like....I really dont know how to even explain it! I am starting to get home sick again but I dont know why. Its just me thinking stupid...I was just able to tell my self that home is where the heart is but its so hard to say that now. dont get me wrong I love the people out here and I love just being here but its just not enough...oh well, what can I do.

I think that I might be moving to Queens even though I have 3 bed rooms or what ever I want it to be all to my self it just doesn't feel right. So that's why I am moving to Queens to have two roommates and a house and a front and back yard...hell yeah...oh, the only bad thing about it is that my roommates will be girls....or will it be bad?

I took 3 classes today two at Broadway and one at steps. Oh yeah, coby thanks for calling me when I was walking to get to the red line..I was trying to hurry up cause I was going to be late.. and you all most made me get hit by a kid on a bike, a girl not paying attention to where she's walking and a blind guy..thanks, but it was nice talking to you guys though.

oh yeah thanks to everyone that has been there for me all this time!!! you guys helped me through so much with out even knowing that I felt this way for a long time.

For if home is where the heart is...
then I am with you!!!

"TO ONLY REACH FOR AIR"

how can I just look at the stars every night,
only really wanting the brightest star I know,
wondering how I got threw just one night with out you,
also knowing what kind of life it is with out you,
I wish I gave you my heart from the start,
cause right now,
you wont except it,
since you left,
you took...
the stars from my sky...
the sun from my sunset...
the world from my eyes...
and my heart from my body,
I want to breath fresh air again,
I want to open the door to my heart,
I want to soar again,
into your embracing arms,
but....only thing I can do right now,
is.....SURVIVE!

"ONESELF"

To hate one self is to hate another,
to lie to some one else,
is lying to your self,
in the end you feel more pain,
More sorrow,
more guilt,
more hate,
why does a person do that to them self,
to escape for a brief moment from reality,
but only to find their self to be captive in their own mind,
a prisoner with a life sentence,
with only one chance,
to change their future,
for no matter what they get a punishment,
a heart to heart,
for their heart might get broken,
but,
soon they might see the light,
with rejoice,
with forgiveness,
that is what life is all about,
if you cant for give somebody,
then your heart will never soar!

some more poems of mine..hey I was going to xanga people to day but I really don't feel well today so I will talk to you guys later!!

John aka yohon

I learned a tight hip hop dance to this song yesterday b4 i went to steps to check out some classes! jeeze since anna couldnt wait for the shout out I will start with her...

anna.. what can I say...except for big foot...green giant...oh yeah.......

Ashely..I dont know you just need a vacation badly sounds like you are wore out. just remember you only got a couple of days of school left. ALL OF YOU ONLY HAVE A COUPLE OF DAYS LEFT.

leah..you are just to nice to make fun of..so keep up what you do!

melinda..I still remember seeing you in comp. doing your dizzle and always getting mad at whats her name...I will get back with you on that....oh it was Nicole (I think thats how you spell it)

amory..you are an awesome dancer and person...I still remember when you where annie "the hard knock life" I dont remember the name so work with me here.

lauren...I had some fun times working with your dad and mom cause you would all ways say something that I had to think about and then try to figure out if you actually said that...like "this rock is dirty!"

oh yeah ANNA I forgot yours...really the only thing that I remember about you is the week b4 Nationals (I think) you had the urge to hit me and you knocked off my glasses, and you take a little bit longer to figure out either a dance or just a joke that was going around and it would take you the whole class to figure out the joke unless you asked some body.

Holly you are just a blonde...I really dont know what to say....cause I really dont know if you would get it if I told you it. just joking with you..you are an awesome person. Just dont let people make you think some thing different!

sorry for the people that I left out this time I will get back with you later! Talk to you shortys later!! and wanna be pimps!

John

I had to go old school...just because I used to listen to this b4 I played a baseball game. I have this song stuck in my head for while now and the song is "Lets hear it for the boy" and its really starting to bug me. I have been doing good out here, hung out with tif. on sat. and we watched the first time we did scarred and it was funny let me tell you and I also saw the rocky horror picture show that was off broadway...that had Ashely Ottis and tif in it...and a dvd of one of the teachers that I take from Jeff shade I saw his work that he had done as a choreographer and preformer and that was awesome!! then yesterday I had fun too......the past week I have been working at steps and also just working so its just been fun let me tell you, only time that I am not tired is when I wake-up then again I take that back. This past week at the boutique I got this girl pissed off at me. I just asked her "how was high school last week?" cause she just seemed a lot happier this week then in previous weeks cause she all ways looked sad when she would buy something and I all ways felt bad, but back on subject that I was talking about... she gave me this really bad look then she told me that "I have been out of school for a while now" she told me that "I am 20", right then I didnt know what to say so I just stood there until she just walked away. I think that I am going to steps today to see when I work next. I think it is thursday but it may-be wednesday. I still need need to know what time though. I got a starbucks card for working on last sat. even though I really dont like starbucks may-be its a lot better out here.

Coby I am glad you are happy to be back in the dance class...everybody needs class cause they are just to fun. hey, pimp just to tell you that we dont to much across the floor out here we do but it not as much that I am use too. We dont do the leaps as much as I would like across the floor.

Caleb you a punk...you need to get that stick down b4 you throw that clutch...but get herr done. and both of you do the dizzle!!!

be gay I mean dj.. do your dizzle at comp. and keep on dancing!!

JJ I am glad you are getting better keep it up!! little punk! you know I just like fucking with you, I hope you know that!!!

tiffany I will see you at steps for class or just call me if you still want to do the ballet thing!

hey, I miss you punks a lot!!! I miss the way that caleb got mad. I miss the stupid random stuff that JJ and DJ did and coby I miss the way that you all ways try to act hard and then run away behind me pushing me forward cause you where picking a fight with a guy that was a lot bigger then you, but yeah here is another poem...I hope you guys like.

THE FOOL!!!

Its good to be nieve,
but not,
to yourself,
when you do that,
you have crossed a line,
that you cant go back across
for you feel like winnie the pooh,
when christopher robins,
out grew him and his friends,
you feel like a shoe that has been worn out.
and you only get to see daylight when the door of the closet is open,
but you dont hope or wish to be out there,
cause..you already are!

by: John Thompson

yeah, for all you other people that I forgot to talk about I will, but I got to run and do some stuff...Just call me tiffany Liberty cause I might forget cause I have a lot of stuff to do today, okay! tslk to you guys later!

John

okay, if you dont like this song...I dont care!!! just joking!

John

Hey, I like to say DJ you are a little_____ and coby and Caleb you are ___-___!!! but you guys know that you are still my little bitches I was trying to keep the cursing down but fuck a duck. I want to say good job at the..... never mind!!!

I have had a rough couple of weeks I had barely enough time to sleep, but it is over the show for me is over cause they are a touring show and I don't want to leave yet from nyc and also because they just are going to some places I just really don't want to go. I am going to miss them girls and guys....I think that was a good summary of what I did this week. How many people do you think can fit into a subway car? you would think may-be 44 people right! Nope totally off it can fit more then 74 people cause that's all the people that I saw and the standing space is about the width of the hallway at CODE (maybe a little wider) and 50 feet long in length give or take. Yeah, AP called me when I was suppose to be going to rehearsal yesterday I am happy she called cause she woke me up, I dont think I would have, and that would have been really bad. I am going to class later cause this morning stuff its starting to get to me.

"You cant stop a heart form crying,
but you can stop the heart!!!"

I hope you liked the Nig grow John Thompson original. I have been spacing out so much lately, cause that's really how you get threw a 45 min. ride to 72nd st. Oh, man I remember that I use to miss churches chicken but I really don't cause I got some thing a lot better out here. McDonalds delivery, its still hot when it gets here too and plus I can still order off the dollar menu actually $1.45 menu. Papa johns I found one and it sucks bad....I am just going to say bad, but Gino's is my knew pizza love of my life most def. well I got to make my day feel like I did something in the morning so I am going to go so talk to you later shortys, and pimps

John

I first have to give a shout out to Holly I hope you are feeling better and my little dookie..and ray ray! you though I was going to forget about you guys.

I had class yesterday thinking I was going to do the max amount of classes I could take on a sunday cause there is not many classes on a sunday anyways and I was going to space it out cause classes here are 1 hour and 30 min. long.... yeah doesnt that sound like a good plan main word sounds. I ended up doing five classes in a row. I thought jazz 5 was bad...I found 4 more classes that are a lot worse then that on a sunday, I took 2 jazz classes, 2 ballets classes and 1 hip hop class. I have never been to the bloch store on columbus ave. that store wow.....like it is right by express and I thought it was express it has clothes that are really cool dance clothes for guys but yeah, fun fun... "downer" I didnt think you would fall for that on the first! still tired need sleep and a shower, talk to you later!

John

I had a hip hop class today and let me tell you..........wow! I mean ______ (you fill in the blank)! there was like nobody that got his style at all during the first hour of his class then sara and I got down with it , but the 1st hour I was just scratching my head thinking he expects us to do what, but he has an amazing style though dont get me wrong! actually my 2nd class of the day was theater we had a sub in he had more energy the our reg. teacher Jeff shade.. not saying thats bad and he was doing all this stuff that we did in soak-n-wet for our dance, but when we where doing across the floor he was like dont dance like you are in competition and everybody looked at each other and started laughing cause more then half the class did competition last year! but I left out a couple of other things he said that made it really funny but.... I dont think I should say it though!The first class of the day was ballet I'm to depressed to talk about that class but those last two class where in a row so I'm dead tired I am just going to go to sleep today early cause I have class sat. yesterday, was fun....too much fun!! I'm just going to leave it at that, but I am going to hit the sack talk to you guys later!

John

I am Having tons of fun out here, but I still miss a couple of things the stars, and Churches chicken!!!!! But its all good I have Juniors to fill that spot in my heart, cause they have the most amazing Cheesecake that I have ever tooken a bit of, and I also got steps awesome and fun people out there, its never a dull moment with these peeps. except for yesterday I couldnt hang out with them cause I had Ballet in the morning at 9:30 so I was being a good boy and went to bed instead of going out like most people would have. coby, and caleb there is this dumb ass guy that is talking shit about the studio and he never has been there, just call my cell for more info. sorry for the use of words but I had to express myself. Well sorry to cut this short but i got to get on the 2 train, one

John

For you peeps that still think that I am still in missouri you are miss understood cause I am in brooklyn if you dont know where that is at ill give you a litlle hint : Im in NYC. I miss churches chicken yep yep I do. Hey Coby no matter what you say. In my head you will all ways be the fat. dont take it badly. well lots of places and lots of people to meet and see, oh yeah last night was amazing last nite (coby caleb). Freakin 1 of my dance classes.......I am just going to say tif likes it for a reason. We dance to green eggs and ham! tons and lots of smile but it was a good class it reminded me of phil execpt the guy was big and had a bald head. well I really got to go this time.

who ever thinks that i left because of coby is way the blank wrong, but I got to go!