April 29, 2005

• I just wanted to end what I try to say yesterday but I cant even do that because I have to start with today...Yeah, I found out that there are so many ass holes to your face kind of people that are dancers actually I want even call them dancer there was this one ballet guy that I saw in this weeks dance mag. and he was a complete ass hole...I wouldn't mind if I really did something to him but I didnt..Just because he is somebody right now...It won’t last forever that way!!! Then there was this person that was bitching me out today cause something wasn’t her way...hey she could of just told me and I would of changed it end of story but she did it again.... so many people are talking about quitting there its not even funny..... There’s a lot more to that story and others but I am just not going to say them here..... On a random subject, I really miss this person soooo bad but I cant trust this person at all....I really don’t know what to do....I now this is if I do forgive this person then this person is going to take my trust and break it again like the last five times but I am just to forgiving.......but then again.....not this time.....fuck them...I gave this person to may chances...If I’m wrong please tell me. I am wrong or right? cause I need feedback!
  hey this next poem is not done but some one said they needed to see it but they where reading it over my shoulder at M to the D...for you people that might take awhile to figure out what I am trying to say that means McDonalds.....Lauren don’t even act like you knew what I was talking about...you know I like joking with you even though you knew that you didn’t get that. oh yeah the poem:

  for I miss my sight,
  for you where my meadow,
  so calm and sweet,
  since a chilling wind has crossed my body,
  the hearts flow has quicken,
  that it becomes so fast that,
  thin mumbling has become silent,
  witch only lasted two life times,
  the room was emptied in a blink of an eye,
  where there was no train coming back to reality for a while!!!

  I just wanted to remind everybody that was just a starting point for me cause that just came out all at one time so I haven’t had time to edit it so Laura call me when you see this...just because you......you know! I would give you better ones then I have been giving you but I just don’t know if I should, but I will talk to you guys later!

  Yeah, I am so going to be cooking today giving my sis and her friend and another...Laura just messing with you..that hasn’t had the John’s famous chicken, greens, and mashed potatoes and rolls...but my meal usually goes better with mac and cheese that I make from scratch but truthfully I hate making greens does..if you don’t know what greens are then I am sorry for you. They forgot that I could cook into yesterday and so they asked me to cook today....These are not really the things that I cook the best though...hey here is another poem for you peeps..by the way I miss peeps the candy too!

  I am falling down to earth,
  with only the thoughts of yesterday,
  of when I looked deep into your eyes,
  and for me to find the twinkle in your eyes,
  only get brighter,
  with ever glance,
  but I knew in the back of my mind...
  That it’s over

  Well I am out this time I hope you dont like the song!!!

  Oh yeah I all most forgot..I have some good gifts for Caleb, coby, DJ, Mya, and phil that I need to send off some time soon so be watching the mail you guys...Its nothing like I sent b4!!!!

  John

  *Edit*Hey, I have some news I was going to be moving to 369 washinghton ave the 1st person that guess where that is (and their fanily of course with them) meaning what boro and what island is it on...I will buy you a ticket and you would be able to stay with me. A little hint I will be living at 369 washinghton ave. is close to atlantic ave. and the Atlantic mall.

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